Capture the moments we have been together.

Time cannot turn back. That's what I know. I shall say out all my feelings currently I have now before I go sleep. Or else I don't think I will get a good sleep today.

Actually I feel a lil upset on myself for getting B in GD CT. Maybe should say I regretted never study or memorize it well. When the answers are so pretty obvious but just can't remember it. That moment I was into being a fangirl worry this and that. So why do kpop concerts have to be so close to my test or exam ? :(

I only can blame myself and face it that I should have deserve this. I know everyone will say at least you get a B or something. I know. Wo shi zhen me fu chu jiu you zhen me de shuo huo. Bu shi zhe yang shuo ma ? Jiu zhi ning guai zhi zi bu nu li yi dian. Hais. Hou hui you shen me yong neh?

And I have receive my DAV project which need to hand it up on week 16 which is 2 weeks later. How I wish all the projects can end as soon as possible. Is kinda stress to have a deadline projects. Which I have to do so stressful daily.
Is like I have to submit almost 5 projects within 2 weeks. Seriously like stressful. But I know I can overcome all these obstacles so that I can enjoy my holiday well.

Sometimes I really need to think of others and not to be straight forward.  Maybe it hurts other when I don't feel the pain on me. But when the pain is on me, it really hurts in my heart. But I can't show it out. Nobody can really know why. I really don't like the feeling when friends are leaving me. Really hate that feeling. It hurts so much.

I experienced it before. But I somehow really miss the days we had together. I don't wish is because the way I'm too formal and maybe too straight forward ended up all dislike me. I feel so upset and I cry when my friends ignore me. I don't like people to ignore me. At least a reply? Why do I have such pain in my heart again. I know I shouldn't think about it again. But I can't.

Whenever I had these feeling I always will cry without fail. I'm afraid things happen again. I don't wish it to. When I need someone to accompany, I always ask myself who to look for. When I know I'm kinda annoying. Hais. I really damn freaking afraid. I don't know why.

I will just treat it like nothing happen.

Things are getting different. I have not met you for 1 month. Is like damn long I know. Both of us are busy with our own life. Things happen different for both of us too. I hope you're alright.

I need a big warm hug. I need someone to tell me you still care for me. I miss................. hais. I really afraid all over again.

Please let me be happy again.