Be strong.

My eyes hurt, is it because tears keep flowing down.

Somehow this holiday seems to be so different from other holidays. I don't know how come is so different as maybe because 2 weeks later is maths common test paper which I have not prepared it yet.

Trying to ask myself to calm down. Phewwwww. Today went back to school to thought of buying the frog prince hello kitty. End up it stated not available anymore. The sales is so freaking good in nyp uh! End up chiong out to the nearest Mac to buy.

I almost fall down when rushing for a bus. Omg. :(((( my heart almost drop out too. I'm still thinking if I really fall, my leg will be damn ugly liao. But lucky I manage to step it properly. 

Don't run or chase for bus. Must becareful too!! End up went to town and walk for like 15 mins and I went back home. Don't have the feel to walk around alone :( suddenly like feel so upset and bounce train back yishun.

Don't know why I don't feel hungry at all :( 

Asking myself is it girls with make up looks more beautiful than a girl without make up?  Is it looks more important because is the impression that gave to others? Why can't I be slim. Why can't I be taller ? Why can't I be better? :(

Everytime saw those pretty girls or ladies, I feel so 自卑 of myself. Since secondary school,  I told myself to change. I need a big change. But seems like I'm failed. I didn't manage to learn make up and I didn't manage to slim down.

But in the first place did I try ? I wanna wear pretty clothes go out, I wanna be slim, I wanna to be different from the past. I don't know where to start from.

Why am I easily cry ? ..............