I will be there.

MY DINNER OF THE DAYYYYYYYYY!!! *LOVE* !

Though I'm not smart, pretty, slim and tall. But this is me. 

Since Secondary school days where everything seems to be like a simple and every time I think back now, I wondering. Yes, is quite hurtful when the person give in all the feeling into a friendship and end up the other party didn't treat it the same way too. Is so hurtful that it can happen by crying. To me, is not only 1 case is more than a few cases that I always feel that I always have no friends at all in the world.

As time pass by, I will tend to move away from all these. But somehow I really miss the days together with you, almost every outing we will go pizza hut and had our favourite hawaiian pizza and I bring you to all the places that we didn't went before. Did some things that we shouldn't do and end up it happened. Buy same kind of shirt, bag and many other stuffs. Though you don't like to have exactly the same things and I will try to buy some things different from you. Going back home by walking in a big round or going to your house and stay for awhile. I forget when we kinda go different way. Maybe is me who walk away from what it changed. I cried quite a few times. Because cherish a friend and treating a friend super good end up like this. Last year of our secondary school life, though we didn't really spend a lot of time together anymore like how we used to be as you went to work and lesser time we can meet up often. It has been years since we go out often and is like after secondary school, we went to different class in ITE. You get to know a better friend to accompany you till now, happy to know you're doing a great job in studies since secondary school till now. I will always remember how we used to be so close together and shared a lot things together. I wish we can go out again soon. Your birthday is coming it means we have not been meeting each other for 1 year. Just wanna say, really thanks for being my 5 years classmates and knowing each other. Sui rang wo men dou zou bu tong de fang xiang le, ye xi wang ni guo de hao.

During ITE days, OPR is the only friend I can really talk to till now. During a period of time, when results are out and she decided to leave ITE and go to Poly, that was the time I'm so upset and feeling so down. I can't imagine she can't accompany me anymore. She is like very close friend that I can really rely on. Things have to change, I have to alone and independent. It looks like no more support anymore. I'm afraid she is not going to contact me anymore, as she might be busy with her new life in poly. And is like I can't really find another friend, things changed so much. Everything is just so different, I didn't really go well, I'm just all alone. Alone going to have breakfast every morning. Alone going to take a long bus ride to Tampines from Yishun. Alone and alone and alone. Though I have the other two friends, but I just can't really clique well. No matter how hard I try, is just a gap there. The gap is can't be smaller but it getting bigger and bigger. And I'm so call alone for 1.5 years. I told myself, I need to go Poly. Is a must to go Poly and I can find OPR again. But really thankful that she still contact me no matter how busy she is. I still remember I had a toughest time when someone told me a phrase that really hurt my heart. I called OPR and we met in MRT Station. I saw her, we chat and end up I cried. I cry for very long, is just so hurtful till I can't. I treat my friend as a friend, end up this is what I get. Really hurtful and painful inside. Lucky I have you OPR! Thanks for being my side till now. Hope all the best for your last year in Poly. I know you're a smart kid you can do it and strive till the end.

As for Ohbasan, though we seldom chat now. But still she is another great friend I had since secondary till now. I cried when she is going to USA, but is a fact that I or we can't change it. She had face a lot of difficulties. But no matter how hard it is, I will do my best for all my close friends. Though I seems to know who is this and that, but the most I have is only 3-5 friends that I will contact. Now knowing another great friend in Poly as well for a year plus, though we are somehow crazy and like to talk nonsense but just really happy to know each other. As we know things happen in between, but is over. Things will slowly back to the original place.

Though I treat them as friend, but I think they have better friends that they can contact with. But is okay, as long as we contact, I'm fine. I can't expect more right? They have their own friends too. Though I'm not in their top priority but as long as they need a listener ear, I will be there for them. Don't expect too much. Ye xu wo hen rong yi bei qi fu, dan wo bu zhi dao yao zhen me yao zhen me ban. Zhi hao zhe yang.

I don't ever want to lose any more friends. I can't take it. My heart is weak. I cannot forget a person like you...........